Who is actually seeing this ?
My name is trouble ,I'm sorry to appear in your life, I don't mean but it's just happen to be
I'm writing this blog and showing them to those who are really important to me ,to show you is to tell you that you can enter ,you mean much to me . But to read or not is your freedom .
Really ,in this busy busy world ,who else will take my trouble to be their trouble ? My feel to be their feel ?
When things really happen ,will they try to understand you or just simply say things that sounds like helping you ?
I know scolding me is for my good most of the time, but I'm just so fragile that can't get scold ,I'm so sorry , I cry when the words really go into my heart . If you scold me I just smile smile means I don't really care .
I used to take other's feeling to be as my own feeling ,I thought I'm so careful and will always be ,but some how when I really get busy ,do I still care about your feeling ? I didn't ,I also give those sui bian comment and reply ,I also don't really remember your problem , I'm so sorry that I had changed ,as you said .
Just hope that I won't hurt anymore people ,this the reason why I don't want simply make friend ,people actually get afraid of me when they know me more ,only those who really want to understand will stay . If you can't give your heart you won't stay ,you will say I can't take it anymore and leave .
I know I have problem and I need to change ,but pls give me time and chance ,this emotional problem follow me since young ,I have to cry almost everyday as normal ,easily get hurt easily get affected by what people say ,and imagine too much before I say thing and do thing ,until I don't say or do . I know I need to change ,the world doesn't owe me the friends around doesn't owe me ,I can't just black face or walk away just because of my emotion, I need to think and stay and smile ,this need time to practice really .
Being here make me know that I really like to be alone ,if I have much money I'll go shopping alone and watch my own movie ,of course if I got money I'll buy that thing you ask for first ,I still remember it and will always remember. I'll go far far away by my own ,I want go kelantan find Yennie without planning ,if can I want go uk! Wait long long la ! But if I got no money ,I'll walk around by my leg ,just now I went to pelita,jin feng huang then restu then go run in stadium then go the green path then go the Masjid playground to play qiu qian. Lol my leg really geng! And I feel good when I want to I can actually walk a lot ,hor I still go out and buy maltar then drink it as I walk so shuang. Can only do this when everyone's back and you're pretty sure you won't meet people that you know.
Okay , so this is a selfish post that I'm so selfcentre ,actually why should I thinking of my self so much? Last time I was not like this de ,I think I become more and more self centred already . I'm so sorry that maybe this the really that I don't care you that much anymore , cos I care about my feeling my own life more ... I'm so sorry but I just don't know how to change this ...
Sorry for being selfish .
I'm writing this blog and showing them to those who are really important to me ,to show you is to tell you that you can enter ,you mean much to me . But to read or not is your freedom .
Really ,in this busy busy world ,who else will take my trouble to be their trouble ? My feel to be their feel ?
When things really happen ,will they try to understand you or just simply say things that sounds like helping you ?
I know scolding me is for my good most of the time, but I'm just so fragile that can't get scold ,I'm so sorry , I cry when the words really go into my heart . If you scold me I just smile smile means I don't really care .
I used to take other's feeling to be as my own feeling ,I thought I'm so careful and will always be ,but some how when I really get busy ,do I still care about your feeling ? I didn't ,I also give those sui bian comment and reply ,I also don't really remember your problem , I'm so sorry that I had changed ,as you said .
Just hope that I won't hurt anymore people ,this the reason why I don't want simply make friend ,people actually get afraid of me when they know me more ,only those who really want to understand will stay . If you can't give your heart you won't stay ,you will say I can't take it anymore and leave .
I know I have problem and I need to change ,but pls give me time and chance ,this emotional problem follow me since young ,I have to cry almost everyday as normal ,easily get hurt easily get affected by what people say ,and imagine too much before I say thing and do thing ,until I don't say or do . I know I need to change ,the world doesn't owe me the friends around doesn't owe me ,I can't just black face or walk away just because of my emotion, I need to think and stay and smile ,this need time to practice really .
Being here make me know that I really like to be alone ,if I have much money I'll go shopping alone and watch my own movie ,of course if I got money I'll buy that thing you ask for first ,I still remember it and will always remember. I'll go far far away by my own ,I want go kelantan find Yennie without planning ,if can I want go uk! Wait long long la ! But if I got no money ,I'll walk around by my leg ,just now I went to pelita,jin feng huang then restu then go run in stadium then go the green path then go the Masjid playground to play qiu qian. Lol my leg really geng! And I feel good when I want to I can actually walk a lot ,hor I still go out and buy maltar then drink it as I walk so shuang. Can only do this when everyone's back and you're pretty sure you won't meet people that you know.
Okay , so this is a selfish post that I'm so selfcentre ,actually why should I thinking of my self so much? Last time I was not like this de ,I think I become more and more self centred already . I'm so sorry that maybe this the really that I don't care you that much anymore , cos I care about my feeling my own life more ... I'm so sorry but I just don't know how to change this ...
Sorry for being selfish .
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