2016
Hey there, it's 2016 now, how did I celebrated?
Simply with not studying but watching movie and videos on YouTube that will definitely make me so regret tomorrow!!!!!
All I want for new year is someone pad on my shoulder and tell me that I need to study and exam no more. I really don't like study la, have no big dream ahead also, now all I wish is to go home and be a worker at hawker stall whatever. I don't want to be a professional anymore, I'm not going to build my own house also, not doing designing or deciding but just simply studying. I don't wish to know how many doors they have out there really!
The reason I cry before every big exam is I really don't enjoy study! I enjoy doing work, create stuff but not use my brain as a machine copy things from books and put it on papers. I'm so suffer to do something that I don't really like. I don't know why I am in Uni also, I suffer in study since standard six, before every single big exam I thought I was going to die, imagine all kinds of way to die when I can't finish study. I'm here just because I passed my Form Six and I thought Uni is interesting will have a lot of activities, but it's just simply not like that.
Sometimes I wished I did failed in any exam that I can proudly tell people that I'm not that smart, I can't study, the stuff you giving me is just too much! And I can go and do simply work maybe like my dad T.T
Maybe I had a dream but I never dare to imagine, worrying it's too cheap, can't help my family, can't survive, can't make people feel proud or just simply wasted all the A's I got. My sis asked before, what can I do other than study? Ya, I can't do business, can't do like Bill Gate or other great men, but I can be a simple worker actually, wash car, doing McD blah blah blah
What to do ya 2016? Continue to study just to survive like all I have been doing in the previous year?
God, can You tell me clearly what You actually want me to do? If you say just a worker then I can quickly quit now and not going to have life like hell in 2016. Now thinking the new sem I already scared, I know it's sleepless night ahead, endless project and then study and then exam, live like ghost and then another sem and another...
But God, if your answer is to be a Surveyor (most probably no going to be building surveyor unless I want work for government = = ), I have nothing to say lo, I just wrote to myself today 神是信实的， 人们所受的试探必是他们所能承受的。 In first Corinthians don't know which verse liao, by writing this I believe I can still live until next year, but I can see no hope, can't see any sign of living better this year.
I really curious what will it be if I give up my degree?
But giving up degree is much better than giving up life right? The answer should be right de la.
Anyway I'm listening Sia's song - ALIVE
I'm still breathing
I'm still breathing
I'm still breathing
I'm alive I'm alive I'm alive
And I can see the crying me when I wake up in the morning
draw build con, human settlement then you go econ
build con de brick must be finished before I sleep! Then walls, doors, windows, floors, staircase......
不多不多，everyone is doing it so should I
Everyone is studying so should I
Simply with not studying but watching movie and videos on YouTube that will definitely make me so regret tomorrow!!!!!
All I want for new year is someone pad on my shoulder and tell me that I need to study and exam no more. I really don't like study la, have no big dream ahead also, now all I wish is to go home and be a worker at hawker stall whatever. I don't want to be a professional anymore, I'm not going to build my own house also, not doing designing or deciding but just simply studying. I don't wish to know how many doors they have out there really!
The reason I cry before every big exam is I really don't enjoy study! I enjoy doing work, create stuff but not use my brain as a machine copy things from books and put it on papers. I'm so suffer to do something that I don't really like. I don't know why I am in Uni also, I suffer in study since standard six, before every single big exam I thought I was going to die, imagine all kinds of way to die when I can't finish study. I'm here just because I passed my Form Six and I thought Uni is interesting will have a lot of activities, but it's just simply not like that.
Sometimes I wished I did failed in any exam that I can proudly tell people that I'm not that smart, I can't study, the stuff you giving me is just too much! And I can go and do simply work maybe like my dad T.T
Maybe I had a dream but I never dare to imagine, worrying it's too cheap, can't help my family, can't survive, can't make people feel proud or just simply wasted all the A's I got. My sis asked before, what can I do other than study? Ya, I can't do business, can't do like Bill Gate or other great men, but I can be a simple worker actually, wash car, doing McD blah blah blah
What to do ya 2016? Continue to study just to survive like all I have been doing in the previous year?
God, can You tell me clearly what You actually want me to do? If you say just a worker then I can quickly quit now and not going to have life like hell in 2016. Now thinking the new sem I already scared, I know it's sleepless night ahead, endless project and then study and then exam, live like ghost and then another sem and another...
But God, if your answer is to be a Surveyor (most probably no going to be building surveyor unless I want work for government = = ), I have nothing to say lo, I just wrote to myself today 神是信实的， 人们所受的试探必是他们所能承受的。 In first Corinthians don't know which verse liao, by writing this I believe I can still live until next year, but I can see no hope, can't see any sign of living better this year.
I really curious what will it be if I give up my degree?
But giving up degree is much better than giving up life right? The answer should be right de la.
Anyway I'm listening Sia's song - ALIVE
I'm still breathing
I'm still breathing
I'm still breathing
I'm alive I'm alive I'm alive
And I can see the crying me when I wake up in the morning
draw build con, human settlement then you go econ
build con de brick must be finished before I sleep! Then walls, doors, windows, floors, staircase......
不多不多，everyone is doing it so should I
Everyone is studying so should I
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