Love

come on, let me hug you and go to sleep
I can't see you in real but at least let us meet up in our dream
let us have a happily Christmas like before
with the church
with everyone's laugh
talking with our langue
you bring me water
I fetch you
I being scold because of I am late
we figure out everything on the stage together
we see and we discuss with dearly wechat
we worry about this and that for Christmas
we discuss who to drive for caroling
we plan for count down party
we prepare foods, cards, speakers...
we make our life so busy with all these things

I think this emptiness inside me now is because we can't do things together anymore
How can you sick in last year?
You were so sick on Christmas, hardly to enjoy the last year in Pontian
You were so sick on countdown
You can't even stay on the night
I would had force you to come if I know that was the last 1 we spend together
Fine, everything is fine
yet you were not there on Easter, it was our first birthday
so on for every season after that
you just can't be here
it's so hard for you
it's also so hard for me

yet you won't be here for this Christmas
fine
people keep asking me why can't you come
fine
even auntie uncle asking
fine
even my dad keep saying
fine
but you say I don't understand?
You think I don't?
It means so much for you
so do I
but what can we do?
this is the world
this is the life
please just stop blame each other
stop misunderstand
cause I just can't imagine where will you be for the next Christmas

God, why is life so hard and weird
why you put people so close to each other until we hurt each other
why everything start changing when I first met her?
why
love can be hurt...

you know what ? we don't even have a nice photo together