I'm sorry
Zen me ban
This feeling this thought still in my mind every time you go crazy, I will think of God first de, but just a little bit, all the other cells in my brain thinking about death to stop all this things...
That night, just a little quarrel, I bang my head to the wall, I use jian dao in the bathroom. Yes, I being silly and idiot again, when things happened all I want to do is to die
I don't know why I can think of this so easily, but just really think about it seriously, I know I will go hell if I do that, but that was really desperate until there's no fear to hell...
Then I saw your message, I told you sorry Cos I really wanted to die, sorry for being so irresponsible, sorry for wasting your time, sorry for leaving you, the love on earth just fewer than the hates. I think about her, also feel sorry, and I always think she is so cham ady, if I leave like that I don't know how she going to face this, so, I must tell at least this three people goodbye before I leave the world I hate.
My parents not don't love me, they just don't know how to love me, they always driving me crazy, I really want to die in front of her just to ask 够了吗？Yesterday she like that again, I just gave up, totally don't want to find her, if she get lost, ask her to take taxi back, if she really lost, then let it be, cos I'm really tired to have you beside me, I tried to run away but I just can't, you're the 1 forcing me that make me fill life is meaningless. I'm sorry to say this but it's truth, I know you love me, sometimes you really good to me I know, I love you also but this love just not enough, I can't love you unconditionally like the drama, I just can't, so maybe I don't know the true love yet.
Today at my bro's balcony again the thought come, I want to jump down, life is so easy to be ended, so meaningless, so worthless. But I can't do that because my stupid Bro keep talking to me, but it doesn't mean I can live this life, I still can't.
I don't want to be irresponsible so I have to say here goodbye everyone that loved me and I had loved, I won't be regret to meet you guys but life is just so torturing that I can't live it just to see you again. For L, I'm sorry if I can't wait until the wedding, until the day we can finally meet. For Y,I know you can always find a way out, maybe you will take care of my family some more, I can be so fang xin to leave because of you, but I'm sorry that I'm so selfish, we face the same thing but I just can't face it together with you. For V, I think there will be no problem for you, Haha, thank you for always spend time chatting with me, thank you for listen all my thought though you may not understand, I believe you can live a good life.
But hor I'm a super coward person, so don't even have to worry, most of the time just think think only, I never dare to. To leave some scars on the hand is the maximum I can go I think, so never mind, just keep going like this, who knows I will have courage to do so tomorrow?
baba mama gor gor Jie jie Oreo Toby Chou Chou, I love you all so much, but I think none of you can understand, I feel very hurt when the people I love most can't understand me, keep pushing me to the edge of death, I'm sorry that I'm super selfish...
This feeling this thought still in my mind every time you go crazy, I will think of God first de, but just a little bit, all the other cells in my brain thinking about death to stop all this things...
That night, just a little quarrel, I bang my head to the wall, I use jian dao in the bathroom. Yes, I being silly and idiot again, when things happened all I want to do is to die
I don't know why I can think of this so easily, but just really think about it seriously, I know I will go hell if I do that, but that was really desperate until there's no fear to hell...
Then I saw your message, I told you sorry Cos I really wanted to die, sorry for being so irresponsible, sorry for wasting your time, sorry for leaving you, the love on earth just fewer than the hates. I think about her, also feel sorry, and I always think she is so cham ady, if I leave like that I don't know how she going to face this, so, I must tell at least this three people goodbye before I leave the world I hate.
My parents not don't love me, they just don't know how to love me, they always driving me crazy, I really want to die in front of her just to ask 够了吗？Yesterday she like that again, I just gave up, totally don't want to find her, if she get lost, ask her to take taxi back, if she really lost, then let it be, cos I'm really tired to have you beside me, I tried to run away but I just can't, you're the 1 forcing me that make me fill life is meaningless. I'm sorry to say this but it's truth, I know you love me, sometimes you really good to me I know, I love you also but this love just not enough, I can't love you unconditionally like the drama, I just can't, so maybe I don't know the true love yet.
Today at my bro's balcony again the thought come, I want to jump down, life is so easy to be ended, so meaningless, so worthless. But I can't do that because my stupid Bro keep talking to me, but it doesn't mean I can live this life, I still can't.
I don't want to be irresponsible so I have to say here goodbye everyone that loved me and I had loved, I won't be regret to meet you guys but life is just so torturing that I can't live it just to see you again. For L, I'm sorry if I can't wait until the wedding, until the day we can finally meet. For Y,I know you can always find a way out, maybe you will take care of my family some more, I can be so fang xin to leave because of you, but I'm sorry that I'm so selfish, we face the same thing but I just can't face it together with you. For V, I think there will be no problem for you, Haha, thank you for always spend time chatting with me, thank you for listen all my thought though you may not understand, I believe you can live a good life.
But hor I'm a super coward person, so don't even have to worry, most of the time just think think only, I never dare to. To leave some scars on the hand is the maximum I can go I think, so never mind, just keep going like this, who knows I will have courage to do so tomorrow?
baba mama gor gor Jie jie Oreo Toby Chou Chou, I love you all so much, but I think none of you can understand, I feel very hurt when the people I love most can't understand me, keep pushing me to the edge of death, I'm sorry that I'm super selfish...
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