EE
Who am I?
how can I yell to anyone?
How can I scold anyone?
How can I hope for anything?
How can I.not to do something?
Now.you still here, with your lovely family,who you scolded but still love you, who you complaint but still help you, who are willing to do the thongs you don't want to do and still been 嫌弃 by you?
EE, you're not little girl ady, how long you want to be so childish? When will you be more mature? Try to settle things by yourself,try to living alone, try to not bringing trouble to others?
Soon you will go out,you hope it comes sooner and sooner, but you never realize how you need your family here. Maybe you think you can do things by yourself in your future, but you never know how much you need them when you feel down and pekcek, when you feel like just want to shout to someone,when you feel like just want to 撒娇、撒野.......
Sorry that I treat you guys like that, I wanted to change but I just can't made it, I felt guilty also, I feel sad also when I said something bad. But a sound deep in my heart will aways tell me that I'm right, I'm saying the truth, so it's never mind that how I say it. But I forgot you said, so what if I win? Ya, so what? I'm a really bad guy here, I feel I'm so hypocrisy! You don't know how I treat the person who really love me, how ridiculous I'm at home! And you don't know what I do when I tell you exam coming, you don't know what I do when I tell you I feel stress. And also, you will never understand how shame and hate I feel when I sleep in class, Ya, no one will know …
Sometimes I also hope that someone will understand what's in my mind when I keep saying I can't finish reading yet I'm watching drama, hope someone will know the really struggle in my heart, Ya, I hope someone understand, cos I also don't understand. I'm really 颓废, inside and the outside, yet I try to cover it. Sometimes I really hate myself, I hate myself that I always forgot how others dislike me, I still talk to them, thought that we are friends, but they actually just like the girl beside you, you know how they hope inside their heart that you can leave that or just be quiet when they talk to that girl, the most polite way for them to chase you away is to say that cause you're not pretty, yet you feel sad for this kind of person, who treat you like shit! When they talk to you, you still feel happy and answer will all your energy! Cos you forgot …
stupid girl, wake up, in reality, you just not suit here. It's like the world is round shape but you're rectangle, just can't fix in, but because you're stupid enough, you can forget about all this soon after you realize, and you can still live and still feel a little good :-)
how can I yell to anyone?
How can I scold anyone?
How can I hope for anything?
How can I.not to do something?
Now.you still here, with your lovely family,who you scolded but still love you, who you complaint but still help you, who are willing to do the thongs you don't want to do and still been 嫌弃 by you?
EE, you're not little girl ady, how long you want to be so childish? When will you be more mature? Try to settle things by yourself,try to living alone, try to not bringing trouble to others?
Soon you will go out,you hope it comes sooner and sooner, but you never realize how you need your family here. Maybe you think you can do things by yourself in your future, but you never know how much you need them when you feel down and pekcek, when you feel like just want to shout to someone,when you feel like just want to 撒娇、撒野.......
Sorry that I treat you guys like that, I wanted to change but I just can't made it, I felt guilty also, I feel sad also when I said something bad. But a sound deep in my heart will aways tell me that I'm right, I'm saying the truth, so it's never mind that how I say it. But I forgot you said, so what if I win? Ya, so what? I'm a really bad guy here, I feel I'm so hypocrisy! You don't know how I treat the person who really love me, how ridiculous I'm at home! And you don't know what I do when I tell you exam coming, you don't know what I do when I tell you I feel stress. And also, you will never understand how shame and hate I feel when I sleep in class, Ya, no one will know …
Sometimes I also hope that someone will understand what's in my mind when I keep saying I can't finish reading yet I'm watching drama, hope someone will know the really struggle in my heart, Ya, I hope someone understand, cos I also don't understand. I'm really 颓废, inside and the outside, yet I try to cover it. Sometimes I really hate myself, I hate myself that I always forgot how others dislike me, I still talk to them, thought that we are friends, but they actually just like the girl beside you, you know how they hope inside their heart that you can leave that or just be quiet when they talk to that girl, the most polite way for them to chase you away is to say that cause you're not pretty, yet you feel sad for this kind of person, who treat you like shit! When they talk to you, you still feel happy and answer will all your energy! Cos you forgot …
stupid girl, wake up, in reality, you just not suit here. It's like the world is round shape but you're rectangle, just can't fix in, but because you're stupid enough, you can forget about all this soon after you realize, and you can still live and still feel a little good :-)
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