干嘛

我在干嘛？
我到底在干嘛？？！
人生没有目标，这就是迷茫吧？
Because I'm not as great as you, so I won't think about I want to success for the people I love, I known I won't be that kind of success you think.

Actually I really don't know what to do, what is the purpose for this life?? You said everyone come for a reason but you never say what is it.

I'm not that hate study actually, but what I'm studying now is under force, you have to study and get good result, at least don't get shameful results. Sometimes I found study physic and math all this things is quite interesting, but the results tell me that I didn't study enough, and exam tell me that I'm not study for knowledge but money in the future, every time exam come and force me then break the relationship I have with the books, I'm not dare to say that study is quite interesting because my result is not good 😥,when exam come, it really make me feel so disparate, hopeless, but when it gone, I back to my lazy life again.

So now, I still don't know I study for what, really, the question I asked Since UPSR, PMR, SPM and now STPM, and I never get an answer that will make me statisfied , will make me keep on study, none.

So tell me, what am I doing? Meaningless right??

PS :if I'll die tomorrow I'll be very regret that I spent my time today to study just for exam and the future people said.